Let me start by saying I’m not a writer. This is just a jumbled compilation of my thoughts. But I digress…
So, what’s next for our crew?
We have a beautiful 16 month old. We just recently bought a new house that we absolutely LOVE. Chris is working full time as the manager of a Starbucks. And I’m working part time as the manager for a non-profit thrift store. We love our little life. Everyone is happy and healthy. But just as we began to feel like we are settling in to life (whatever that means), we both began to feel like there was something more.
(Funny how God is always calling us to something more, right?)
So, what’s that mean?
New jobs? Nope.
A puppy? Oh heck no! (Agreed. Heck no. -C)
…Babies? (Raise your hand if you’ve been waiting for that B word…) Well, maybe. (My hand has been raised for over a year, just saying. -C)
Let’s back up to when I was just a little girl. For as long as I can honestly remember, I have felt a desire to care for children that weren’t my own. Odd, though, because until Eloise was born, I never really considered myself to have that natural maternal thing. Like, I never really enjoyed watching other people’s kids. But ever since becoming a mom, I’m that crazy lady that wants to hold strangers babies. I cry at commercials of kids getting really excited over puppies. I think that maternal thing I was lacking early on is making up for lost time.
(Chris history, or Christory if I may, is as follows… As far back as I can recall, my mom was the neighborhood/county babysitter. At one point I want to say we had 13 non-Benson kids in my house on the daily. It was our little daycare system. I knew how to change diapers and wipe snotty noses before I could legibly write my name. The desires that Alex had growing up were things that were already very familiar to me. -C)
But really, looking back now I believe that the Lord was stirring something in my heart from a young age. When Chris and I met we talked about a family and having kids of our own. And adoption was usually a topic of conversation when family was mentioned. We were totally on the same page.
Fast forward to a few months ago. It was back in early summer, right around when Eloise turned 1. It’s funny, you see, because when your kid turns one, suddenly people feel the urge to insist you start reproducing again. And Chris and I were suddenly like, “shouldn’t we be having more babies now?” But as the conversations began happening about growing our family, we kept coming back around to the idea of adoption. Like I mentioned, since we had known each other we had known it was something that we wanted to do eventually. But it was becoming more and more evident, through prayer and talking with each other, that the “eventually” was sooner rather than later.
There’s a lady that goes to church with us who conducts home studies for adoption agencies. We asked her if we could pick her brain. We were clueless and didn’t know where to start. We met with her for an hour or so just to chat and gather information. She was super helpful and we left that meeting excited to begin our adoption journey. We had the paperwork in hand, but we could never get the pen to the paper. You know that uneasy feeling where you just can’t go further? We took that as a sign from the Lord that it wasn’t the right time. We felt like God was saying “not yet”.
And then…I thought I was pregnant. If anything will add confirmation to putting an adoption plan on hold, it’s thinking you’re pregnant. (She speaks truth. -C) We’re still not sure what happened. May have been a miscarriage. Or maybe my body was just acting all out of sorts. Could have just been the confirmation from the Lord. Yeah, we’ll go with that.
So now, we’re like in August. Pause on the adoption idea. Thought I was pregnant, but I wasn’t. And through the midst of the past four-ish months, I kept having encounters with people, friends and strangers alike, where foster care would come up in conversation. It’s almost laughable now, looking back just over the past few months and the obvious closing and opening of doors and the conversations that are so evidently Heaven breathed.
Fast forward to today. We, through prayer, conversation, and meetings, have decided to partner with Faithbridge Foster Care and plan to complete our foster training by the end of November of this year. What does this look like? I have no idea. We are answering the Lord’s clear call on our lives to be foster parents. (Whoop! -C) We are open to the possibility of adopting. Other than that, we’re trusting Jesus for the answers and walking in faith. We don’t know what’s next. So, what does that mean for you? That means you can pray for us. Pray for us each individually. Pray for us as a family. There are up front financial obligations to become certified foster parents through the state. We are trusting the Lord to take care of it all. We will be on the look out for furniture to furnish a secondary bedroom, as that is required before any child can be placed. There are a lot of unknowns. Stepping into the realm of the unknown can be intimidating. Many days I feel like I don’t know how to be the best parent to my own kid, let alone someone else’s. That’s kind of scary. But I am choosing to believe that God’s grace is sufficient for me! We are SO excited and expectant!
We cannot wait to see how the Lord is going to write our family’s story!
If you’re interested more in what Faithbridge does, check out their website – http://www.faithbridgefostercare.org
If you want to know more specifics on how you can pray for or support us, email Alex at firstname.lastname@example.org
(Just a quick shout out to my bride. She doesn’t know I’m doing this. Well now she does, and now she’s mad I wont let her read what I’m writing. God give her the grace to forgive me for stealing her blog.
Alex has a heart that is normal sized, but goes all Grinch and grows to 3 times its original size when it comes to Kingdom things. She doesn’t stop at “good enough,” but rather “there is literally no more room/funds/needs but maybe just one more thing!” So when we first started seriously talking about adoption, she pursued every avenue, keeping me updated every step of the way. Then after the mysterious maybe-pregnancy, she did the same with Faithbridge. Alex has such an amazing heart, and she wants to so be used by God to love all the children in the world. It is evident in everything she does. She would take in a hundred little orphan children if she could, and never complain about it. I give full props to my amazing bride, because she has been the one to really get this train rolling for us Bensons. We are excited for what God is in store for us as a family. Please be praying for us as we follow God’s call. -C)